I’m on my bed, nursing injuries I acquired earlier this week, musing about what this year has been for me.
Almost about this same time, last year, I made a blog entry with a lot of enthusiasm on how I was expectant of this year. It was the year that I was turning 30. That alone was a huge milestone for me.😊
2016 has been a year that has taught me lessons a few people may take a lifetime to achieve.
My year started off with the end of a 7 year relationship that I had invested all my worth into. It tore me. I lost everything I had ever worked for in the blink of an eye. Went to bed rich, woke up a beggar😊. I chuckle
It has been an year that taught me what resilience means. I knew I was tough alright, but I didn’t know how much inner strength I had. I don’t know if this is inborn or if I owe it to God, but on days I felt I didn’t deserve to live, I woke up to the hope of having a better day than yesterday.
2016 has taught me the value of Friendship. The value of family. It brought about for me, people who I never would have thought of, to hold me together. Friends became strangers but the most beautiful thing, is that strangers became friends. To everyone that held my hand in 2016, I can never ever truly thank you or repay you. But deep in my heart, I always know I owe you one. God bless you. Miriam Nzilani, TSL aka Laura Munga, Nusu, Chopie, Shiru and Shiru, Muchina, your Mum, Mish, Sabbie, Nesh, my Cucu (bless her soul) and above all my dad. You all left a positive mark in my heart. And to everyone who made a point of making me know that I am a special child of God. Thank you.!!
This year has just been full of lessons. I learnt how to believe in myself. Learnt how to trust in God even when everything seemed so bleak. Learnt how to unlearn all the things I had picked up along life’s road.
In 2016 , I have learnt it’s not easy being a young, hot, successful woman. The bile that so many have against me is palpable. Never a day goes before I hear a rumor about me , sleeping around to make it in life. I cannot even keep a male friend 😂😂. God knows how many sleepless nights I have had thinking of how to strike my next deal or how many times I have worked unconventional jobs just to take care of me and mine. If you have an explanation as to how I have worked days and nights on end on my Matatu sometimes as driver , other times as a dondaa, then share it, cos I don’t. I have learnt to ignore the foolishness around means focus on what’s important. Your words And lies about me haven’t stopped me from making an extra shilling.🤑 Keep at it😉
I learnt how to be a better parent in 2016. Losing my friends was a blessing in disguise. I have learnt how to take comfort in hanging out with my babies. Learnt that it’s not material things that have kept them happy.
I learnt what it feels like to have nothing and as such it has made me very compassionate. I have become less judgmental. Very indifferent. Fair and sober in decision making. Decisive. Most importantly, YOLO is no longer just a phrase for me.
I have been through Near Death Experiences. I have seen it all. Suffered derision. Scorn. Hatred. Fame. Success. Loneliness. Emptiness. Abundance… Everything in equal measure. And in all this, one thing stood true for me, God lives. Yes. He does.
So, as the year draws to an end, I have zero regret for the choices I made. Zero regret for the path I walked. I am grateful for all the lessons that 2016 threw my way. They were a wonderful foundation for the start of the rest of my life.
So yes, I wasn’t able to throw the mega birthday party I was meant to but clearly, this year has Been a party since January. Parties of all sorts. Trust me.
I can only wait to see what the year ahead holds in store for me.
Ooh, yes, as I share my chronicles as a young woman in the errant Matatu Industry. Stay tuned 🤓